Well, this blog certainly isn’t getting updated very often, even if I really want to post something, I never get around to it.
Since last time, I’ve started an apprenticeship for Team Leading and Management at work. That means I have a manager who mentors me and whom I shadow at one of the libraries along with my coursework that I need to do. I really like it so far and I’m happy that I decided to apply for it because I feel mentally challenged and satisfied doing this kind of work. Not that I’m not pleased at how much I help people with my regular IT teaching job in the libraries, I’m just happy that I have something else to add to my list of things I can do.
There were Team Leader jobs as secondments available this year but I do like where I am and I wanted to spend my extra energy in focusing on my apprenticeship. I’m sure the job would have helped me gather evidence for my course, but, again, I’d rather stay doing what I do because I think I help people.
Helping myself is another story. I’ve been trying to do the diet and exercise thing but, man, am I so tired these days. I was okay for a bit when I got my bicycle because I was ready for sun and summertime, but now I’m not doing as well as I hoped.
I’ve been writing a book, I guess, about how these things have caught up with me. I’ve never been so stinking frustrated with trying to write, blog, work, exercise, lose weight, spend time with Mister Pick, enjoy my time at home, and do things outside of the house so I don’t end up being a hermit. (Although, being a hermit isn’t looking so bad these days.) I listened to a podcast yesterday that said if we keep stepping over the crap that’s flung onto us, we’ll eventually get out of the pit. Good advice and I have to take that all to heart when I’m feeling like the me I’m trying to build just isn’t showing up.
I mean, surely everyone feels like there’s just too much we should be doing, don’t they? I had to make Sundays be my non-social media days because I was getting overwhelmed with the comparisons. I should be writing my book. I should be traveling. I should be making a business. I should be starting a podcast. I should be engaging on social media.
The funny thing is, once I stopped using social media as much, I realized how much I don’t need it. It’s a useful tool, don’t get me wrong, but because I’m kind of a special creature – American, in England, still don’t know what I’m doing, the usual stuff – I get really down when I see people appearing to know what they want and doing it.
But, alas, that’s still one to work on this year. 42 is definitely an interesting one, I tell you.
Also, I’m still watching videos about bullet journaling and although I have my Passion Planner (one for daily agendas and one more for academic tasks), I was curious about all the binder planners that people were posting on Instagram. I was going to get one online but I happened to see an A5 agenda binder at Wilko’s after work this week, so I’m going to print some free planner sheets to add to it. I even bought a small 6 ring hole punch to get working on these. I’m wanting habit trackers and while it takes all the artistic design out of making my own for my bullet journal, having ready-made pages may really help me in the long run.
The photo above was from our recent trip to Wallington. We’d been before, years ago, before we had Daisy, so we took her to explore the vast farmland. Of course the sheep weren’t interested in a giant barking goldendoodle but, hey, who can blame them?
I have another week of work before Easter and our break to Liverpool and Hoylake so I’ll be sure to update on that trip to see the Pick family. Until then, grab your eggs and your bunnies and enjoy the upcoming holiday.
I think the people who make themselves sound so good on social media are usually just plain lying. I am older than you and I still feel I need to find out what I’m doing with my life. My writing – which is so important to me – hasn’t really happened for ages (needless to say, this January was going to be the start of The Year – and here we are halfway through April). I would get through far more books – books I want to read – if I could stop myself playing games on my phone. And the amount of time I spend worrying (cats, children, parent, life) is totally ridiculous. I suppose we just have to keep on keeping on, but I know, it’s HARD sometimes. You sound far more organised than I am, so well done you. And like me I think you moved house relatively recently? That is a major life thing in itself. I love my new house but there’s still so much to do in it – and sometimes I feel so flummoxed about what to do next that I just go out (usually to buy more books just in case I suddenly read all the hundreds I’ve already got…) Anyway, today the sun is shining – I hope you have a lovely weekend!