Down on the Farm

We visited Down on the Farm today. Nice little place with animals and play areas for kids. Jack is still a bit too little for all of that but he liked waving to the other kids. He waves to the animals too, which is adorable.
We saw little pigs, goats, sheep, deer, meerkats, alpacas, cows, a donkey, and a tortoise. We even took a tractor ride to the top of the hill and had a lovely view all the way to The Pennines.
Just a nice morning out and only stayed an hour or so. This included much needed hanging out time by the cafe with a hot drink. I totally recommend it.

https://www.downatthefarm.co.uk

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Self isolation March 2021

I had to self isolate at the beginning of February and now Jack has to self isolate for the first two weeks of March. This means we’ve been at home a lot. I’ve been trying to keep a (now) 14 month old and a goldendoodle content from 6AM to 8:30PM. It’s exhausting, yes, especially when we can’t even go out for walks or drives.
I enjoy being home with them though and I’m honestly sad that the prospect of life going back to “normal” may start within a few months.

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Still. At. Home.

Today is one of those days. I’m tired of being at home. I’m sick of not being able to take the baby anywhere, or go anywhere as a family. It’s been snowing for days and it’s lovely to see from the warmth of the house, but, wow, this is just frustrating. Lockdown won’t be over anytime soon, I’m sure, and I’m running out of ideas for how to keep Jack entertained. I just hope he enjoys being home with us. At least Daisy has been able to enjoy the snow.

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Starting nursery and back to work at the library

Stopped off on the way home. 😇

Guys, it’s just been a week.

We took Jack to nursery for the first time. That was a nightmare and a half. He did fine, aside from the crying at the beginning and end of the sessions, but I cried and cried. I don’t know how many other mothers right now are feeling completely overwhelmed and completely helpless to all that’s going on right now. It’s hard enough having to leave your child, but without any family nearby, and no ability to see friends or co-workers, we’ve had no one else around that baby but us.

Granted, he’s had some baby classes, which I’m really thankful for, but letting someone else hold him and cuddle him made me sick to my stomach. How was that child going to handle that?

Everyone told me that this was all going to be harder on me and that babies are really resilient and they handle things like nursery quite well. But after seeing him reach out to me on our last visit, and I had to walk away from him, I don’t know if they just realize that their parents doesn’t care and isn’t going to help them, so they have to just deal with the situation.

Like the idea of them self-soothing and crying it out when you figure the baby just gives up on anyone coming to help them. (At least, that’s what I always feared.)

With all of this going on, I have to get ready to go back to work on Monday. I honestly am excited to see people again and not be on mummy duty all day, but how am I going to handle not being on mummy duty? I’m always on mummy duty!

Steve is going to split his working from home days so he has afternoons with Jack while I’m at work. This is only going to be for three days, which seems like an eternity, so we’ll see how that goes.

I’m also worried about bring Covid into the house because I’ve been in my safe home bubble for a year. Also, Jack’s developed a cold, so he’s not sleeping well and feeling crappy, so this is all terribly stressful.

Now that it’s the end of my maternity leave, I’m really sad that my magical year with Jack is over. It’s been tougher than I ever imagined, but I’ve enjoyed being a stay at home mum. I’ve wanted to run away from the house screaming (and did during the first lockdown, if we’re being honest) but I’ve been so grateful to have all this time with him.

So, I’ll miss him and I think that’s the hardest part. I’ll miss spending my day chatting with him and chasing him and wondering when I’ll ever be able to sit down again. I won’t know what to do with myself.

I was really convinced that I was going to write a lot and be really productive this year, but I just wasn’t. I focused on the one thing that was the most important and that was raising a happy little guy.

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A blog update for 19 January 2021

Evening walking path

I’m writing this at 9:30 at night while I’m holding Jack. We’ve had a power cut and this poor sweaty child hasn’t had a bath. It doesn’t help that he decorated himself with apple sauce at lunchtime, but never mind.
Steve had to light the gas stove with a match to get some water boiled to make a bottle for Jack. I was tempted to go across the street and ask someone to heat a bottle for him in one of the neighbors’ microwaves but I didn’t have to.
Poor kid still is dirty.
I go back to work in two weeks. I am not pleased by this just because I feel like I’m abandoning Jack. Steve sees this as an opportunity for Jack to be somewhere else, playing with other kids, being part of the world, learning and doing and not being stuck in the house all day with us.
– LATER –
It is now Tuesday. The electricity went on at 10PM last night, so luckily we had some heat through the night. I’ll be so ready to get this baby into the bath tonight (and myself into the shower!)
I had a nice chat with one of the girls at work today, so they know to expect me in a couple of weeks. (My poor baby!)
It’s still raining and I doubt a family walk with by on the cards for the evening. This is all we can do — take walks when Jack isn’t napping or when the weather approves (so, rare).
I’m still struggling to get any real writing done, so 200 words a day is the best I can aim for. I want to get the YA series out of the door but, alas, time isn’t really a thing anymore. (And, yes, I know people say that’s not an excuse but when you have a one year old, that is the only thing you can concentrate on.)
Well, I’m being summoned once again by the man of the house, so here’s to randomly updated blog posts.
Oh! And I have a podcast now! Jack’s Mum is where I talk all about mummying.

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